confersesion of broken heart

i can't forget him. never can't. i dont know why. .
my heart like a hole. its make me so sick.
althought he's never stay in here.
i'am still can saw him in my eyes
always him.
makes me feel. .
he's always be there. .
to remember me when i lose control. .

but. .
why he's still appear in my life?
what happen with me?
what his do when we're met last time?
when we're kisses
for last. when i feels his lips.hes so cold for me.
i'am just feel. .
he's made hole in my heart
making me so sick and shouting everynight.
what does he want from me?
he's make me hurt.
dare to leaving me.alone

althought that
why i cant forget him?
why i'am never cant to remove about him in my mind?
when i wanna hard to forgotting all. the hole always opened. like a parasite. always crush me.and broke up me. he's never know my wound. .always make me cries when i feel like this

and now i just hope. .
i can open my life again. .to forgeting all. and to closed this hole